At least

At least he attended my convo back to my diploma graduation..

It is my utmost dream for him to attend my degree's convocation,

obviously, that was a dream that can never happen.

at least, he attended.

too bad, he won't be there for my degree.

I want him to see I get degree,

like how much I miss him.

Or perhaps, I miss him more.

I want to sleep in my own house.

I want to feel the love he has been poured on me all that while, before he passed away.

I can feel him, at least the moment I sleep on his bed, before I went into the dream.

Not as strong as few months back.

But, truly, I miss u.

It is occasionally in my mind.

If you ever come back, will I treat you like the same.

Perhaps there is a second chance, I will still do what I did.

For not appreciated your love and care.

For not appreciated your advice and anger.

I, indeed, am not a filial son.

please don't take my daddy away.

That punishment is just too harsh for me.

When will I ever grow.

thought I've grew, in fact, i'm not.

still dwelling on the same matter.

still get scolded by the same reason.

few times, I wished you were there to help.

Help me in my r'ship.

Help me in my life.

Help me.

I wasn't that strong like how you see me.

Or never did you thought I'm strong.

I still need your nurture.

still need you scolding to make me grow stronger,

desperately like a hungry baby craving for mummy's breast.

please don't go.

I should put that as a wish for my 21st birthday,

if it's true that wish will comes true.

At least...

You came for my convo.

Dad, I love you.