Being a tutor.

Being a tutor doesn't seems as worst as it sounds like.

I have this particular concern that everything gonna be serious and strict.

But at least, other than the boredom I can see from my tutees, I see nothing more.

A lot of things that I worried - incompetence, anxiety and etc,

don't really happened in the session.

it is merely some sort of discussion to the point that

I just not being able YET to make it interesting.

It is more like transferring knowledge now.

For the sake of the certificate, money (which really kind of little),

and most importantly - to let myself to have a chance to use English more frequently.

Fortunately, I get something more.

The experience is something money can't buy.

Although it is only my second tutorial class,

and I happened to have 2 tutees dropout,

I still felt warm.

In fact, i feel the person who never leave,

is the one who really interested in it,

have the motivation to know more.

Of course, i know they having this mentality that

PAL sessions going to help them more compared to the lecturer.

I feel i have the responsibility to push them to attend lectures, by all means.

If it is because of me, then they choose not to attend lectures as

it seems that PAL is sufficient enough to provide the material.

I should be put to blame or at least I held responsibility for that as well.

Having said about the experience,

I feel warm when one of my tutees sent email to appreciate for my effort.

It certainly worth more than any penny would do.

It lifted a smile on me and push me strive harder (though I'm still lazy).

This shall be one of the most unforgettable experiences while I'm in HELP (or is this the only one?).

We shall see how the following 2 years would likely to be.