18 December 2009

Time : 1.52am

Just came back from cyber café that near KDU, and in fact, I know exactly nothing where the KDU College is located. How did I get there? What else if not fetch by someone.

Again, like old usual, I ended up played 2 games of DOTA at that particular cyber café. And yes, it was my intention to do that also. In case anyone of you still vague what DOTA stands for, it actually represents Defense of the Ancient.

Prior of this 2 games, had a match of snooker with Cheng Hoe. I been thinking whether should it consider as a match as he is obviously much handy in playing snooker than I am. I guess it is more likely a teaching guide rather than a competitive match. Still how, I manage to get some fun in it. He officially won the “match”, but I assumed I am the winner as I could get the last black ball in with spectacular skill and luck that both of us could ever imagine of. Quite a big turning point for my “down” feeling to “up” as if rocket firing from the ground.

Having said about DOTA, does it really happened that my skills are weaker than before? Matches over matches conveyed I am the loser, and only rare case that I won a game. Am I no longer interested in this game? I don’t think so. There is some inner feeling that never ever up to the surface. I wonder who they are also. In what way it leads to a addicted-me?

Today is also the end of the 4 consequent days of final exam periods. Really get exhausted by the time arrangement of these finals. Are they run out of their minds, or simply by doing so, it really could fail a student and make them to repeat the subject in order to earn the tuition fees and other relevant fees. Or it is just the so-called professional conduct that could prove the standard of that University? Fortunately, it ends anyway. And truly from my heart, I did not the best for all my papers.

I predicted the first and the last paper which both stand for Social Psychology and Conflict Theory and Resolution, will be the most difficult subjects, and should pay extra attention on it. Whereas it is expected the middles which are Project Management and Career Guidance will never cause trouble to me. Since I had been said things in this way, guess you can predict what the true outcome was. Yup! It is totally reversed! I screw up the middles and ended up did a “not-so-bad” for the first and the last paper which I treated them equally (I think so) in terms of revision. There is an old saying, prepare for the worst, yet I am still a Don’t-Care-er. This time, I had have really make my life difficult.

Been wondered all these days why am I feeling so sleepy throughout these 4 days, and still wondering. I could stay awake for the whole night sitting in front of the pc, but never a book. How pathetic it is. I can never be a book worm.

It is 2.24am now; again, I start to feel sleepy. Wow! I break the odd! I am feeling sleepy in front of my notebook! Talking about my notebook, I feel so regret that I had treated it so badly and now it is suffering partially brain damage. I find no way to cure him but to continue use it as if nothing has previously happened. But the true fact is that, it happened! And he could no longer do things like how he usual could handle of. In the past, MSN+ couple of web surfing+ Window Media Player are never a problem for him to function smoothly. Now, only Window Media Player itself could cause “bad cough” for him. The songs that played are exactly like how someone is coughing and “keg keg keg”! Cheryl said, you need to SAYANG him one, otherwise he also not showing good attitude towards you de. It is really hard to SAYANG and take care of him as I had took him most of the journey in my University Life. It already like my underwear, follows me whenever I go. Guess this is not the problem, but the reasoning behind is that, I am just a Don’t-Care-er that do not know how to take care a thing, even it is not cheap.

*Yawned. Guess this is it. Drying eyes are starting to catch my attention by make me feel pain with it. My mind is as well ready for spinning around if I continue for further exploration. That’s all. Good night-

End -2.36am.