The rusher-

Just finish my post for yesterday and here is the one for today.
Rush and thus, words and sentences may have serious
grammatically errors, though it was always a problem for me
even I am typing in a relax mode but it is more messed up than usual.

Bad move?
I delayed my blog.
It is just my fourth blog and, I have problem to continue it at this very beginning.
It seems that I have serious issue in procrastination as well.
To put thing at the last minute isn't always harm,
but it do crashed when everything is drag and leave at the last minute.
At the point that, you felt helplessness and it is only then you realize that
- You only got two hands and one brain.
Never turn to an idea to be a multi-tasker, but in fact,
you could actually do all the things, one by one,
to be more wonderful and fantastic that you might
sometimes never expect it.

Second?
After the exam, I checked my PMG result and
out of my expectation, it was not really bad after all.
I do feel happy for my result.
But, is it a good indication?
I do my reading very last minute, and
which should be punished with a big "n" on my mouth,
I get a "u".
Is it good for me? It continue reinforces me that,
even I do very last minute,
I still can did it pretty well.
There is no harm for being procrastinate.
Sigh.

Lastly.
I found out that I am an ego-challenged person.
I am seriously having a hard time when people having comment on me.
Either it is a good compliment of bad criticise.
And definitely when it is a bad one, I do felt defensive and emotional.
Is it it was my automatic response that
my self-esteem feel that it was being challenge and threaten,
it should defend and protect for its own sake.
I do am a traditional reserved person.
Once a value that I adopted in,
it appears to be hard to go off.
Is this a way of human nature in order to kept for their survival.
To recognized the origin way and usual way,
rather than risk themselves in a novel way.
However, consciously, I do attempting to do constant
changing for myself.
I mean, I do searching for changes and innovative.
But, I am hard to change.
On the other hand, like social psychology suggests,
but I have forgotten the term, in which,
once I change, I might change to the strong
opposition stand.

Good take?
1st, all mid-tern exams is finally finish.
Wow! How relieving it was.
But then when the "assignment" word strike in my mind,
the blood and its veins started to be non-cooperative,
and the blood struggle as though wanted to get itself
free from caging in the vein.
Muscles always tense up.
Anxiety level arisen.
Deadline is in this Friday.
Rather than finish up that assignment,
I choose to write this post,
simply because,
I treasure self-realization much more than any others.
This should be the second good take I think.

Last but not least,
able to live and keep living
to be able to see all my beloved family members
and lover laughing over together.
Especially big gratitude for my little nephew,
and thank to his arrival to this world,
a lot of joy and laughter surround the
atmosphere of my house.

Bless him to have a happy growing environment,
and never fail to have a smiling face
whenever I see him.