self-doubt

Despite how much I trust my own ability, It doesn't work out the way I wanted it to be.

Comparison is unnecessary, but word is always better than action, i can't help to keep doing it.

The difference in age may be the large part that starts the argument within myself, trying to resolves the dissonant that can never be resolved.

Taking a closer look to my life journey, there is hardly any strong point that I can really proud of, hardly.

Be it upward or downward comparison, both were just detrimental to my self-esteem. Hitting every little part of me, getting rid of all the positive me.

Move with the emotion, thinking it will get over and feeling better, it just never, or at least, it still there, bond with the every mind of me.

one word that could best describe the current me - demotivated.

Yea, demotivated.