thin

my girlfriend said i actually look better when i am thin, because my cheek bone is obvious and it provides a more structured-look rather than a face that surround by meat and fat with no edge at all.

another friend said i don't look good when i thin, she said i look better when i am "fat" last time.

I don't actually remember that i was once "fat" before, so i assumed that she actually compared the now-me with the previous-me and so, she actually meant i was fatter last time compare to now.

one said yes, another said no.

however, you might get me wrong.

i aint trying to say what should i do- to remain my current or gain weight.

I point it out merely the fact that it was interesting to take notion.

i never have the intention to gain weight or to diet so that i could get my current body status.

It's just that i don't feel like eating as much as before.

or more simply, why should i eat more than i required?

it is not as if i am someone who work as labor who required good source of carbohydrates to gain strength.

i am literally doing nothing after dinner, other than simple mind-working or walking up and down the stair. or maybe include defecation and urination if you want to put that into account.

so what for i eat so much?

it is a waste of resources and at the same time i am burden my body with the risk of getting diabetes and used up extra energy to digest something that i don't need.

this whole thing above reminded me of something related that i said and after some feedback from others, it left me in deep thoughts.

remember the classic example of how your parents will use when you didn't finish up the food content?

Yeah! that's the one - do you know African children got no food to eat?

then one of my friend pointed it out saying that do you think by eating the food i can help the children?

my answer. of course you did!

firstly, your parents are increasing your awareness that somewhere in the world, there are misfortune fellow human being got no food to eat, and their daily concern is not about the due date of assignment paper, rather, is where to get the food.

second, they are teaching you to appreciate what you got. in specific, to appreciate the food that you are eating. not finishing the content can be partially your responsibilities of wasting the food.

for example, if you are the one who knew you aren't going to finish the food that you ordered, then it is obviously your fault! resources is definite and can be used up. it is not meant for wastage. you might think it doesn't seem matter at all, because there is only little left. well, i am sure you've learnt the simplest formula in the world, sikit-sikit jadi bukit.

another thing i wish to point it out is, even you are the one who pay to get the food.

but please be reminded that you are buying from the slaughter, or any third party, they are all human, i never see they have the right to sell a "life" to you.

so, you are paying to the seller, not to the animal.

the animal aint get any kind of compensation.

and now you are served with their body part and yet declining to eat due to some stupid reasons that i've found - that part is not delicious. it is still forgivable but debatable that you stop eating because you are full. but now the animal sacrificed their life and provide the energy to you through consumption, yet never once a thank you came out from your mouth but even reject to eat it because you don't like that part.

even a tiger is more humilitarian than a human.

they only seek for food when they need it.

if they are full, i can assure you that the baby would be absolutely fine if you put them together with the tiger at that moment.

and whenever they caught a prey, they finished it up before move on to another.

they never left any rubbish-dump-food.

if you are not vegetarian.

at least, appreciate the food you are eating,

don't overtake the amount that you are capable of.

framing your argument with a nice gold frame wouldn't make you better,

rather, it gives me only a sense of immaturity.