"dulan"

It is not Mulan, not Durian, or any other things have to do with du or lan.

I am feeling so pissed off in the past 30 minutes.

Reason?

I can't think of any, it came without any consent and went off leaving me back to normal again.

PMS?

this is the closest I can guess, but [I'm not a girl! not yet a woman] too. ~.~''

Can still joke, I assume I am really back to normal already.

this is the first time that this "dulan"ness felt so deep that I really feel like giving everything up.

But It is much better also in the sense that I could still regain some rational thought in the split second.

Not saying beating up people or vandalism, but merely feeling emo.

When feeling really rise, "rational" always sit by the side seeing "emotion" one man show.

Both superstar can't be on the stage at the same time.

Well, it's already 10.00pm.
Hope I still can get something done, at least.

I really hate the feeling where I have to settle everything in the end after day by day procrastination.

It felt like eating super hot curry chicken that is so appetizing

but suffer over another hole in the end.

HOT!