moody moody

Am I moody?
I not sure.
Moody or emotionless?
Feeling no mood in a way, but nothing in a way.
Contradicting within the realm of my inner battlefield.
Maybe Jung is right, there is opposing psychic exist together within a self.
How amazing it is, 2 polarized elements living together under single component,
that only human capable of doing it.

Visited back to my relatives house just now where my grandpa once lived in,
to pay my respect, and see him lying in the "big house".
He still looks handsome, calm and steady like he always was.
A peaceful leaving, i guess.

Anyway, here is how he passed away.
Fall down, sent to hospital, stayed around 2 or 3 days,
at 07/08/10 morning, he requested for kopi (that's what his culture was, a coffee as breakfast), after having few sips of milo(my mother brought 3-in-1 milo) as it is the only alternative because no coffee over there, he said he has it enough.
It is then my uncle brought kuih from the food court, he had 2 bite of it, and the nurse served milo (from hospital). Once he having the first sip, he vomitted all the foods that I've just mentioned, and that's the forever goodbye.

Chinese are pantang to die in hospital, as the dead-one's body will have to be disserted.
it is then the hospital suggested to cover my grandpa with towel, and bring it back to the house,
assuming he passes away in the home. My uncle and my mother did it of course.

How fragile one's life.
Like the tiny moving ants over the floor,
one drop of water could bring the end of their life.
We aren't any better than them.
Once heart beat stop, there end your last chapter of your life.