A Good Blamer

A good blamer, indeed saying me.

I can blame the sky, the weather, the people, the ants but rarely the finger is pointing to myself.

Played Dota at the evening, I blamed friend for the reason he is not by my side in which

i consider he supposed to be doing it.

Carry with the distress emotion, every following matches never ring a victory bell.

Played Basketball, I blamed them too, I never told them of course.

For the reason that as if I never exist in the court,

for the reason they can't get the ball where it is obviously catchable.

For so so so many reasons, never once I thought it was my fault.

Only when the emotion get over,

this little rational thought emerges and gives the owner a big slap.

I had wrong too.

I did mistakes too.

Not one or two.

Not only in Dota, Basketball.

But throughout the day, one after another I've did.

Like what I've thought of,

I don't see them in the court too.

Neither I was there when they need help.

And,

big apologize to my girlfriend that I am not by her side when she needed me most.

Suck partner, I am.

Frankly speaking,

I never wanted to write blog.

When the button "new post" is there,

I am so reluctant to push the click.

I did push, eventually.

It is the little urge inside shouted with its best but softly listen,

that determined this post.

I get reminded of how important to write down my every single thought, regardless how naive, cruel, naked or whatever it is, for the reason it is part of me.

I can hear the school bell ringing soon although HELP never has one.

It gonna start in very sooN!

And yet I still have no clue what subjects to be taken.

Research never been done of course, but some advices I've heard from course mates.

Get it all done by tomorrow ba.

Night.