Life is unequal in its nature. We all have a life, but the quality can never be the same.
Yet, I would say, no matter how good is yours, you can't leave on your own.
We are interdependent. ^^V
Good thing and bad thing though.
This is the point where expectation comes in as we are interrelated.
Wanted to be independent yet can't let go of other considerations.
Or simply, I am just afraid of losing something that I used to have.
After all, who can really let go everything?
Let go the dualistic thought, there is something called grey area too.
Getting the balance point should be the goal of the life game.
And almost every now and then,
I will still wondering,
what was his last thought before he moved forward to face the destiny of life.
Did I occupied a space, even a minor and subtle one?
Brain are amazing, I believe.
This is why I believe the image of me will somehow flashed through.
I am just wondering, before the last breath, what his son was in his eyes.
Tell me in dream, if you could spare some time for me, I am anticipating.
I know I am demanding, and childish too.
Asking for something that you always have for me previously,
but I never appreciate and make full use of it.
thinking there is always a next time.
thinking no one would wrote your name on the death note.
thinking misfortune will only land on others but not me.
An idiot, simply I am.
Or,
let the time faded my memory,
like the young kid never get the answer from their parents,
about How I was born.
and search for the answer when I grow up,
to feel like how you felt,
to go like how you go.
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