Gradually and suddenly

It's has been a "long" while since I last in contact with DOTA.

If you ask me when, I can't tell you the exact date too.

I am not sure either when and how it worked out this way.

It seems like everything happened in a blink of eyes,

and it's like I'm so craving in play Dota today but quit it on the next day immediately.

It is also true if I say I quit it gradually.

I devoted my time lesser and lesser on it and just somehow,

I quit it. Not absolutely literally quiting it in the sense that NO MORE playing.

but it is rather no more addictive like how I used to.

from going there every weekend, it is now only once in a month.

for most of time, there is not even a game in that 30 days or 1800 hours.

A dramatics change I assume.

Definitely it is!

CoOl thing is that, I don't feel sad for it,

though I don't feel happy also.

It is just like something that's not important passing through your life.

it comes, you grab it, let go and continue your life like nothing remarkable has ever happens.

Anyhow, it did impact my life significantly.

To be honest, I am proud that I am good at it once upon a time.

It will be written in my own history.

As something glory, but as mistake made too.

Dota gave me good memory, like coin have two side, it gave me too the opposite side.

My life ruined once, and reconstructing now.

Friends told me that not to be so extremist toward it.

But sometimes it is not about the extremes side, but more on how badly you want the change.

And frankly speaking,

there is time where I want to get rid of it so badly that I announced no Dota anymore.

True is, I remained static.

No change is happened.

And to my surprise, without any declaration, I work it out this time.

Just channeled my energy onto other activities,

and this addictive spell dispel.

Night still young, but I'm not.

Good night.