8/3/10
Day 1, I rushed back to home with a hope.
It crushed, badly.
9/3/10
Day 2, I still hold that hope.
Its still not happened... yet, I believed.
10/3/10
Day 3, as usual, before I went to bed,
I look into coffin, searching for any alive messages,
I am dissapointed, again.
11/3/10
Day 4, the coffin is no longer here.
I still feel he is here. Never leave.
He left. I wonder why.
He never leave. I know.
He is still here, I know.
I'm okay, I know.
I promised him what I've promised,
and I must actualize what I've promised.
I know this is a dream.
I hope I can wake up from this dream by him.
Day 1, I slept.
He appeared, sat on the chair,
took his own nap.
I know I am awake at that moment,
because I saw he was survived and enjoyed his nap.
I woke up in the morning.
I know I must have in my dreamland again,
that it is not true that he is still lyed in the coffin.
I wonder why this dream is so long.
That I slept in day 2 and day 3,
but never did I woke up,
and saw him sitting on the chair,
talked to me, or even scolded me.
I want to hear him scold me.
Never so desperately before.
I gave him the chance, but never he appreciated it, this time.
I miss him badly.
When I can see him again?
Ba, where are you?
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I could feel he is there when I'm in your house yesterday too. =)
Sitting at where the table were just right after we came back from the funeral parlor.
it was the same feeling I felt when I stepped into popo's house after her death.
and it won't go away so soon.
Nini, don't smile when it hurts. Then, you are deviant. A theory by Cheryl Wong. Blerk! Be like Qfeng, k?
by the way, they said its good to not wake up from your reality to see your dad. because if he is, he isn't going in peace and he wanted something from you.
by dreaming all the time, like what you are doing now proves that your dad is doing just fine in the other world.
this is what i heard from others. whether to accept it or not, its up to you..
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